Two disturbing days in a row is not doing wonders to my psyche. After too long of appearing extremely euphoric and talkative, I have now sunk into some deep need for silence, this scary intense depressive state where I'm extremely antisocial and am perfectly ok with it. Which isn't ok at all.
What disturbed me yesterday is too disturbing to be blogged about.
What disturbed me today was the realisation (the second time already - first was in my first SW module) that these people are scarily clueless about their homophobia and sexism and racism and operate on some strange basis of even stranger assumptions, and I don't know how or why and I don't want to think that some poor unsuspecting soul might bear the brunt of this and I think this rant is not a very fair one and I should get over it, but I can't.
Because of the expectation that by this time or at least at this age, even if they are strongly homophobic, racist and/or sexist, they should at least know their stand/values and I think I'm expecting too much.
Maybe that's why brains are so attractive. I think I'm just naturally attracted to people with brains or at least some capacity for self reflection and analysis even if it's extremely self indulgent at times.
Somehow I have this sense of deja vu, like I've blogged about this before, but whatever, life goes round in circles.
