The 'periodic intensities' that I've always used to describe my life has now morphed into 'periodic' intensities. The 'intensity' is a constant; what changes is the nature of the intensity i.e. what type of activity.
My life this semester, excluding the 5-modules stuff, started with SingaPopera followed by Cello Exam then came Thesis Proposal Presentation which was before Quartet Gig and then there was Esplanade Concourse which was followed by SingaRaya, and then finally Exams. And amidst it all, who can forget the students from KoolPurpleSkool and others from Newton Tampines Alexandra and KentRidge.
Post exams, I have tons of stuff to look forward to, including, writing report cards for all the KoolPurpleSkool students, starting data collection for thesis, conducting two choir items and. Let's.Stop.There.Now.
It is therefore not amazing that I do not want to talk to anyone, don't care what I write on my exam papers, don't want to think about doing Anything Anymore except fill the rest of my days with a Blank Space full of no words and no people and no work.
A positive reframe would be 'You should be thankful you have the life and the energy to do these things'.
And my reply to that would be, "I'd rather be dead, thanks".
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