really?

I want to burn my cello.

It is a constant source of pain frustration exhaustion grief.

But maybe it is me who is causing all the turbulence.

There was the rather interesting talk on perfectionism with ShortShorts , just before she left for Land Of Maple Syrup. I've actually never thought of myself as a perfectionist - just a control freak, but maybe they are one and the same. Anyway, now I am gradually seeing that the way I obsess over certain things, like the choice of words, or the way something sounds, is a manifestation of some perfectionistic streak that is driving me nuts.

Self-immolation doesn't seem like a bad option now.