fly away

Figured I have to post now if not I'll never get to sleep. Realised today that UCC Hall is almost the size of Esplanade Concert Hall when I looked into the audience and saw a mass of people. I wasn't scared as much as just felt this rush of blood to the head and everything else after that was a blur.

I've said it before and I can't help saying it again, but she's genuinely awesome, the way she moves the crowd, the way she talks to them as if she was in her living room, I think that's what generates her mass appeal. And also, the way she doesn't mind staying back after the concert and signing autographs for a whole foyer full of people..(she was still signing when we left at 11 pm and the concert ended at slightly past 9pm.) Again, I say that her records are like low carb mocha/frappacino lite - suggestive of her ability but a poor substitute. If you want to understand the hype surrounding her, you have to go for her concerts.

I shan't whine about my playing, because half the time I was trying to untangle my left thumb from the earphone cord, and heard more of the echo than of my own playing, but there was this one intensely flat note that took all the effort I had not to make a face. A friend who went said I was grinning continuously, and I supposed those were the numerous times when I had weird sounds coming through the earphones, or from the cellos, and the facial muscles unconsciously spasmed.

This sounds delirious.

On a more sober note, I think it really was the prayer before the concert that helped. Even if it was held with people of different denominations, or people of other religions, it did remind me of the Source of all music, (good or bad). And there was this moment of stillness, (pseudo Zen because who needs zen when you have God). I don't know what I'm rambling about actually, it seems all to be an elusive subjective feeling, in all the imprecision of an Arts student. Whatever. Think I've finally used up enough words to sleep now,

and if this post doesn't sound faintly cerebral, it's because alcohol has killed the brain cells.