foolish

Recently developed a set of photos from the Kodak machine. Random shots of family in their element, random shots of people, all very mundane, non-sensational, normal, i've run out of vocab. My parents see the shots and go "Why you waste your money again! See, half the hair is cut off in this one.."

And I wondered, why the need to take photographs at all? To capture the moment in memory, yes, but sometimes I feel as if each picture is an experiment, to see if you can find anything different about the subject, literally seeing the thing through a different eye. This doesn't really apply to inanimate subjects or posed shots. Maybe posed shots do tell their own story as well, you just have to look harder. But the shots you take when people least expect it, or the shots you take when u press the trigger in reflex action when you see something nice - the shots are cruel in detail, especially when you shoot peoples' eyes (with the flash off of course).

I think i'm just an emotion voyeur, maybe to make up for the lack of it in myself. Even if looking at other people/myself smile in photos doesn't evoke a similar response, it'll still make me think ''hey, they/I managed the fool the camera that time, I can fool the world tomorrow. '.