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Borrowed Law and Order: Special Victims Unit Year One from the Esplanade Library and ploughed through three discs worth of episodes before I realised that I had to stop before it completed my transformation into an asexual being. With every episode dealing with a sex crime of all different permutations you can possibly think of, its really difficult not to be disillusioned or whatever you call it, with the world and probably men in particular.

I'm not an aspiring angel, in all senses of the word. You are allowed to say that I'm just immature and haven't fully outgrown the "Eeks! guys?!" mentality of adolescent girls. Well maybe at that age they already go "ooh! guys..." complete with doe-eyed fawning gazes and all. (see I'm talking to myself again.)

Well I guess I shouldn't blame my asexuality entirely on Law and Order. I suppose it's a well meaning show, if not to entertain, at least to inform us of what heinous acts people are capable of committing so as to scare us into coming back early and locking the door properly. Not to mention we have our own fair share of sex crimes in this sunny island.

External (male) threats aside, who's to say we can be kept safe from ourselves?

[I know it's stuff like this that sparks off numerous speculations about my sexuality but is it really that difficult to see why I feel this way about guys?]

I shall stop before I implicate myself any further.